Saturday 31 May 2014

Then and Now - Willy Lau

My great grandmother was a preacher at Jubilee Church. She was there during the John Sung Revival. My mom kept this photo of her dad’s wedding. In fact she has a library of photos of each of us (I have 3 other siblings), all our family trips, our birthdays, our growing up years. 

She constantly complains that nowadays, we take photos and keep them in computers and social media and do not develop them. She needs to hold them and feel them. 

I praise and thank God for as I listened to all the participants sharing their own church history. We all stand on the shoulders of giants and many stories of the faithful have been lost. Who am I? What makes the church what it is today? What are the conversion stories of all these grey-haired folks that I see them coming faithfully every Sunday? What was it like during their youth ministry those days? Did they even have youth ministry? What kept them going? What significant thing happened in the past? How did they go through so many years where they didn’t even have a pastor? 

A picture tells a thousand words. Where are the stories? Can I hear them? Can someone share with me? Do I have time to listen? Do I really want to listen? What if I find it too hard to do? What if I ran out of patience? Am I constantly looking for relevance or is there something so valuable that I must listen but pretend that it’s not there? Is there such a great generation gap today that we can’t connect with the old anymore?

Pr. Willy Lau
Synod Youth Executive

We Are Young... Let's Set The World On Fire - Willy Lau

I was at Esplanade to support a friend’s daughter singing with The Acapella Society. A bunch of kids, from different background, races, colors, probably different religions, coming together for one purpose, to sing, in one voice. 

As we enter into the second week of STEP, I saw everyone coming daily for one purpose, to learn what it means to be a Presbyterian. We don’t hold absolute truth as doctrines are merely something we formulate that points to the reality of God. The message in the Bible is more important than doctrines and we can learn and appreciate other traditions as well. Let us move away from extremes of conservative fundamentalism and fluffy experiential simple faith but go deeper into God’s divine truth as we strive to know Jesus as who He really is and not just for what He can do or had done for us. 

Indeed, how many of us know of pastor who has pastored the same church for 20 years, read so extensively about John Calvin and yet continues to be so humble to say that he doesn’t really know a lot? I thank God for examples like that, praise God for leaders like that, who shows us the Bible is not an instruction manual and there is no such thing as the most biblical form of worship why we should constantly reflect on who God is through our worship liturgy. 

Can we design a worship liturgy that allows the congregation to better understand who God is? Worship as a divine and human encounter. What’s the difference between information, knowledge and wisdom? Are we simply stuck at the age where we are only looking for information? The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom….Lord, help me to fear you so that I begin to have wisdom.

Pr. Willy Lau
Synod Youth Executive

Continue To Learn As Our Faith Grows - Kerrhui

Being a cell group leader, I always thought I knew enough to teach and that alone was sufficient. However as I listened to more talks, the more I knew I was lacking. As the speakers mentioned about different books, writers or names, I was shocked at how people around me seems to know most of them yet they are about the same age as me. This shows that it is either they are too passionate about knowing things related to Christianity or that I am lacking behind. I think the latter would be more true. 

Other interns show me that I should not be satisfied with the little knowledge I have towards our faith and God, but actively seeks to understand Him more. It might be easy to profess ourselves as Christians, but it will need much more to maintain and uphold our faith. Even our current level of knowledge is not enough. We might not be able to remember things we have learnt after a year perhaps, and thus there is a need to constantly read up to enhance our understanding of God and be constantly reminded of the life God wants us to live out. 

It is just like how our faith works. There is never a point where our ministry or our knowledge of God is enough. We are like a car driving up a slope. As we learn God's word continuously, we will have growth (move up the slope), but once we stop yearning for His word, it does not mean our growth can be maintained at that level. Instead, we will backslide. We should always aim to progress when we are running our race of faith.

Also, without reading and studying more, we could interpret things wrongly and preach the wrong teachings. As Rev. Tan Tiong Ann mentioned, 'If you deviate a little now, in the long run, it will make a BIG difference'. This is especially important for everyone who are being leaders, role models or teachers in church. We might think what we know is right and spread the knowledge to our peers. But once we deviate from the truth, even if it is only by a little bit, it could spread wrong messages to those learning from you, and it might continue to be pass on and on and on...

Kerrhui

You Have Been There For Me - Kerrhui

I think I had been acting pretty reserved during the 1st week of STEP. I was being socially awkward as I'm facing a lot of personal issues which are making me emotionally tired and thus it was hard for me to talk much to others. Initially, I thought I would just leave STEP with lots of theological knowledge and not much strong bonds with the other interns because of my quietness and since we are listening to talks most of the time and not interacting. 

However, things changed in the 2nd week. I am very glad that STEP has meticulously planned a fellowship time for us (Botanical Gardens). I could have chosen not to join the fellowship since the venue was far and frisbee wasn't really my thing. But our God works in miraculous ways and He saw the need in me. As I was really busy with STEP and some church ministry this month, I couldn't fellowship with my church mates. God knew that I needed fellowship and He provided for me. Somehow I just ended up in Botanical Gardens and had a great fellowship time. Though I might not have shown out my feelings, I truly enjoyed the fellowship time with everyone, even when I'm just being a listening ear. 

Once again I'm being reminded of the importance of fellowship, how it is not something we should neglect or overlook. According to Hebrews 10:25, "And let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another-- and all the more as you see the Day approaching."

I had almost forsaken the fellowship time with STEP interns, and I'm thankful that God brought me back to show me His love through His people. It's great that STEP is not just all about knowledge and learning, but also caring and ministering. 

Remembered the story Jean Chiew shared during the Youth Sharing, where she saw this girl among the crowd and just asked 'are you okay' and stood beside her in awkward silence? The girl ended up asking for a hug and cried. Now I feel like I'm that girl and you all have been the one comforting me. Your presence alone is sufficient. You might not know what you have done, but I just want to let you know, you have been there for me.

Kerrhui

Theology Behind Our Worship - Michelle Quak

I had not realise how much theology has been imparted/indoctrinated in us every week through worship proceedings and the monthly Holy Communion. It feels almost as if I have taken it for granted. All the years in my life, I had not questioned why worship followed a specific order or why we had to sing some specific songs before/after a proceeding. The Theology of Worship session by Rev Tan Thiong Ann has finally unravelled and taught me the biblical understandings, reasons, and theology behind all these. What left me stunned was that our Presbyterian worship revolves around the Trinitarian God:

"We come before God the Father and His Promise
And because of the Son, we can stand in front of God
With the Holy Spirit among us."
 (I may have heard wrong, but its something like that!)

During devotion that morning, we were asked to discuss what worship meant to us. A friend said, "Do you know what is the difference between 'praise' and 'worship'? 'Praise' is something anyone can give and receive. For example, a mother praises her child. 'Worship' is something you cannot readily give to or receive from anyone. It is for a higher being." Well, one may say that we have our own pop singers or actresses whom we worship and adore, but this basis of adoration and worship is built upon reasons that are human and subjective (e.g. X is so handsome and sings and dances so well, therefore I worship the ground he walks on). However, God offers none of such "attractive" attributes to 引诱 us. To me, worship has always been a personal affair with God. Maybe in the past I used to harbour that same mentality (e.g. God is good, therefore I worship Him).

What Rev. Tan mentioned about worship and feelings resonated very well with me. He emphasized that worship is not about feelings, it is NOT subjected to feelings. However, it is a response to the divine being, and the knowledge of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit that is among us. Sometimes I struggle with the worry that it is my feelings which 'govern' my worship to God or 'lead me to have a more effective' worship. I play the keyboard for service in church and sometimes find myself worrying over playing the wrong notes, or oh no what fill-ins should I do. Therefore I am overly careful with making sure the notes I play are correct and thus start to lose focus on God during worship. I realise that I should not let this get in my way of worshipping God for who He is (not for what I am doing/who I am etc. it is not about me), and not trouble my mind over my imperfections when He is the greater One in this. 

In the past, I used to find it easier to connect with God while being surrounded by nature. I think nature helps me feel at peace and it is therefore 'easier' to 'experience' God or to communicate with Him without the distractions of technology. But again, this seems to be focused on my feelings! I had been using 'there isn't enough nature around me' as an excuse for not making effort to talk to God. God doesn't want us to wait for the 'right feel' at the 'right time' before worshipping Him.

The Holy Spirit dwells among us, and therefore we are in solidarity with God. Nothing more or less that we do can change His love for us. This is something too beautiful that I cannot comprehend. And because I see God's hands or His blessings in my surroundings and people around me, I can't help but believe in Him and worship Him. I no longer need a 'right feel' and 'right time', nor do I need to reason that God is good/kind/merciful/etcetcetc before I worship Him. Because knowing all that He has done for us, the blessings He has bestow upon us, I can't help but be thankful and worship Him.

This is Prapat Beach, and the Andaman Sea. This beach stretched for miles and had a very wide shore (because of the tsunami 2004). This is quite an ugly picture of the otherwise pretty beach. I was alone on this beach because I woke up earlier than the others and decided to spend some time to myself and God. It was the first time I ever felt so small in this world and realised how tiny and insignificant a human being is.  I prayed to God, and the moment I looked up, I saw a rainbow (can you see it??) which lasted only a minute or two. And this is how I constantly feel each day: humbled and awed by God, and thankful for the littlest things in life.

Michelle Quak

Visitation to Church of St. Mary of the Angels - Peter Fu

Despite it being ritualistic and all with the procession, incest burning, sprinkling of Holy Water, I love how the Father and the church revered the Word of God. It was held high above the father’s head and placed on the central altar throughout the duration of the mass.
In John 4:23 it says: "Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks."

Where else can we find the absolute truth apart from the bible!? It deserves to be at the center of our worship and sermons. I’m very grateful that the Lord has blessed us with different versions of the bible in different languages. 

Unlike the old catholic times where only the popes can interpret the truth (and their messages are sometimes a mix of truth and traditions), it is now made accessible to all. Our Lord has become a personal God where He can speak to us during our quiet times and bible study sessions. We’ll less likely be led astray by misinterpretations as more people are giving the opportunity to read/understand the bible. 

With this privilege the Lord has given us, it then becomes our responsibilities not just the pastors, BSLs/CGLs to understand the bible to the best of our knowledge. Let us treasure this opportunities. Take your quiet times and bible studies seriously, and do try to read up on some commentaries. This will help you to develop a deeper understanding of God and His plan for you.

Peter Fu

God, Order In Creation, and Science - Joshua Xie

Our speaker today was Jose Philip who spoke to us about the topic science and religion. Stanley L. Jaki believed that Christian theism is the reason why he aspires to be a good scientist. I have always felt that since God is the creator of the heavens and the earth, the study of the things He created should he us appreciate Him even more and I am driven by that fact that so many amazing things exist because they bear testimony to just how great He is (general revelation haha). 

I really liked the way he broke down the way of scientific reasoning into a type of philosophy that it was based on. In today's education, I feel that we are unfortunately brought to the point where there is just too much information floating around. We have learnt to bypass certain basic reasoning, assuming that they are true, so that we can "move on to the more important things" such as what is going to be tested in the examination. Mostly, we are only taught very limited content subjects such as economics, literature, science, mathematics etc. 

Being very heavy in content, most of us feel smart being able to cram mass amount of information into our brain, unaware that we might be blind-sided by our own thinking. It is almost as if we built the very box that box us in. For example, basic assumptions are: 1) everything is real, 2) there is order 3) there is correspondence between observation and reality. The assumption of “there is order” is really an important aspect of how science progresses, and “order” is the very thing that God created in the beginning. 

It is because there is order that we are able to observe patterns, scientists are able to create experiments to test hypothesis. This to me was really enlightening. It was an aspect of creation, which I knew but did not think further about the implication, or its significance. Putting it all together was really mind blowing and I was really getting excited! But when I think about the many smart people, whom God gave brilliant minds to, are still rejecting based on their own “cleverness”, it is really sad. All I can say is that only by His Grace our eyes are opened to the reality of Him being present. When one realizes how lost we would have been without His revelation and grace, it humbles me and allows me to appreciate what it means that only by the work of the Holy Spirit, do we truly see. 

"The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit." (1 Cor. 2:14)

But bearing in mind that even the brightest might succumb to their pride in knowledge, the arguments that we make are also points for our own self-reflection.

Joshua Xie

Leading the Discourse on Relationship between Christianity and Science - Joshua Woo

The relationship between Christianity and science is one of the most confusing issues to many Christians, not least church leaders. Over the years, there has been much polemic being exchanged in the public. Just last year, during a commemoration event organized by Nanyang Technological University's Institute of Advanced Studies and Singapore's Science Centre, Lawrence Krauss (one of the speakers) repetitively criticized religion in his talk. He kept emphasizing that religion is false and science is true.

Some years ago a microbiologist friend asked me how can I believe in God when scientists say that the belief in God is untenable. My friend is not a Christian, and she is not the only one who holds that view. I have met people from various backgrounds who are as curious as Christians when it comes to the relationship between faith and science. Therefore I decided to have one session on this topic for STEP's interns.

It seems to me that the best approach to understand the relationship between Christianity and science is to ask what do we mean by 'science'? The enterprise that we call science today is relatively vague. For example, is neuroscience a form of science? To many, it is very obvious that the discipline is science. After all, it is neuro-science, right?

Yet, neuroscience runs on faith. Much of the assumption in neuroscience is built on unproven beliefs. As the Director of the University of California's Social Cognitive Neuroscience laboratory, Matthew Lieberman writes,
I am a neuroscientist and so 99% of the time I behave like a materialist, acknowledging that the mind is real but fully dependent on the brain. But we don’t actually know this. We really don’t. We assume our sense of will is a causal result of the neurochemical processes in our brain, but this is a leap of faith. (Emphasis added) 
If much of a scientific discipline such as neuroscience is based on faith, then is science really that different from Christianity? This is not to deny that they are different, yet are they so far apart from each other with science as the discipline which is based only on facts while Christianity only on faith? I doubt so.

Besides Lieberman's pointing the faith dimension of science, the debate in the 20th century among philosophers of science (Karl Popper, Thomas Kuhn, Imre Lakatos, and Paul Feyerabend) has shown that we still lack a definite criteria for scientific progress and knowledge. As Geoffrey Gorham notes, "[T]here may be no single criterion for demarcating science from non-science or capturing the proper scientific attitude." (Philosophy of Science: A Beginner's Guide [UK: Oneworld, 2009], 40.)

As STEP's interns emerge as church lay or pastoral leaders, they will encounter question from their church members or challenging situation they face in university or workplace. I hope the session on science and Christianity will inspire and facilitate them to think through this issue so that they can lead the church in an informed manner.

Pr. Joshua Woo
Chairman of  STEP 2014

Eye-Opening Visit To A Roman Catholic Church - Benedict Cheong

I would like to think that every week starts on Sunday instead of Monday. That way, I can avoid the proverbial ‘Monday blues’ by celebrating the start of a brand new week every Sunday. It’s obvious why Sunday is a day worth giving praise for.

I have often wondered how many people are crazy enough to attend 2 churches in a single day. The answer is quite a lot, apparently. The lot of us. Anyway, this Roman Catholic church in Bukit Batok was certainly an eye-opening experience for me. The worshipping of Mary as a saint was one thing I couldn’t understand. Coming from 10 years of Catholic schooling, I have grown accustomed to being ignorant about the practices of the catholic faith. In fact, I found them annoying to a large degree, partly due to the school making the students stand through 10 repetitions of the rosary dedicated to Mary during morning assembly. As a result, I was already extremely prejudiced towards the catholic faith, even before I stepped into the church.

However, over the course of the service, I found it hard to remain antagonistic as there were many parallels I could draw to Christianity. There were several practices that were questionably different in general, but apart from that, the Word that was preached was surprisingly sound. This was more that I could say for certain churches that claim to preach the Gospel but end up drawing hordes of people with their focus on abundant blessings related to material gains.

As Christians, we must be able to discern the truth from false teachings to some degree. Despite my disapproval of catholic methods, I went home feeling significantly less enmity towards my catholic friends. While we may not share the same views on certain subjects, in the end, I am heartened by the realisation that the spread of God’s Word was more than what I previously imagined it to be.

As Romans 10:9, Romans 10:12-13 and Ephesians 2:8-9 mentions, the criteria for salvation is simple (but not easy!). As long as we acknowledge that there is only one God (and that He is the same for both Christianity and Catholicism), everything else that we do differently is trivial and shouldn’t prevent us from ostracising and judging one another, just like I did.

Benedict Cheong

God's Sovereign Grace and Our Christian Living - Jonathan Lau

All of us interns went back to our own church to find out about our church history. Guess what, I don’t even know much of my church history. How the 5 years plan of Providence Presbyterian Church helps to build up a church, with few congregation to a large number now. I really saw the sovereignty of God, how God works in Church and bring more people into it. I heard about other church history, which is quite amazing. Some of the churches had difficulties finding space to hold their service, yet God gave the church abundant grace and the church is still under God's care! Thank God!

In the afternoon, we had a talk on christianity and science. He talks about how science cannot disapproved theology or rather God. Science is just a tool for God's natural revelation.

Rev. Tan came to talk again,this time on Calvin's doctrine of Christian living, about how we,as christian, should sustain our christian living. One thing that struck me was that he said christian shouldn’t be trying to gain a perfect life, but rather maintaining Christ in us. christian living should be union with Christ. This reminded me of the phrase 'in Christ'. We are living in Christ, not on christ or what, we should take Jesus Christ as our role model when dealing with our christian living.

Afternoon, Preacher Gideon came down to talk about biblical counseling, about how we should counsel people at the same time not betraying our morality. We must love, know, speak, do. The most important step that I feel is love, because if we don’t love the people we counsel, there is no way that we will be able to understand them,and also that we are not displaying the image of God in our life. Also, we must let people know that we are not perfect and that we need God in our life. Always point people towards God when counselling. :)

Jonathan Lau

Knowing God's Words and Works - Jonathan Lau

Another enjoyable week with fellow interns. We went to bethel presbyterian church for a talk by Rev Tan. He talks about the reformation and john calvin. Then after that, we had sharing from three amazing youths. Their commitment in evangelizing is so amazing. They are so young too, reminds me of the verse from 1Tim. 4:12, "Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young,but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity." It makes me wonder whether I can really commit my life to evangelise, to do missions, basically God's Works.

Bethel Presbyterian Church's roadmark is 道路,真理,生命。

Next day, Rev. Tan Tiong Ann talked about the theology of worship. He talks about how the Roman Catholic Church observed the Mass, which actually objectified grace into a medium. So only through a medium is our life effected by grace. 

As Christians, we should not be finding ways to gain salvation through different mediums, but we should live out our life in ways that God desires. He talks about how we can worship anywhere. During the Old testament period, they don’t have sound systems etc, but they are still worshipping God, so how can we say that some churches has better worship than some? It reminds me that, as a worship leader, I shouldn’t keep comparing how I lead with how other people lead. As long as we are praising God, as long as we are glorifying him, that is worship!

Then after he talks about the sacraments, what John Calvin said about the sacraments, which is a symbol of our faith in God. He used an analogy of why we must partake in holy communion even though it is just a symbol. The analogy is when we wants to get married, why must we register under R.O.M.? Holy communion is a teaching of Jesus and it is important because it shows our full content of our faith and our acknowledgement of our salvation through Jesus Christ.

Jonathan Lau

Holistic Faith - Nicholas Khaw

Another takeaway was that this faith cannot be just limited to the theory only nor practical only nor deeds only nor belief nor feelings nor anything in particular. It is whole. And more than the sum of its parts.

While my pre-conditioned and biased mind tends to look at things from a largely rational standpoint, (OK, I am not fully rational but I tend to value it more) other parts are important too. This really is a reminder that I cannot think Christianity. It is not a subject to understand alone. To claim one understands this faith through the mind alone is to miss out on a huge chunk of this faith. It is more than just logically sound, it is also emotionally, spiritually, morally, sociologically, psychologically sound. To reduce God into an argument is to not know God actually, perhaps it is something I ought to safeguard against. To limit God into just feeling would be to have mindless masses like those after pop culture or whatnot (did I just insult pop culture? Perhaps.) To limit God to a genie… … So on and so forth.

Rev. Tan Tiong Ann mentioned that John Calvin was able to synthesise the bible, the living word of God, into functional theology. He claimed that was one of the most important things Calvin did. I agree. Knowing without doing anything is something us second-generation Christians tend towards. So into the culture that one does not understand it from the outside. An example from week 1: I never knew that Chinese in Singapore these days still hold onto Christianity as a white man’s religion. And that was true even to friends that I have spoken to about Christianity and I never even knew about this underlying assumption.

Some of us generalize the Bible into an instruction manual, something Rev. Tan repeatedly cautions against. Like what is right what is wrong. Like lawyers. We take God’s word to be a law, like the Pharisees. We try to define terms, set limits, boundaries, discuss the extent that things crosses into wrong. All these are well and good in the interests of better understanding God’s word but God’s word is more than law. Rev. Tan (I think) also said that God’s word is relevant today. It is alive! I think one should look past technicalities and focus on the intent and bigger picture of God.

A Christian life is unique and different in all forms. From the state of perpetual worship to the whole being.

Lastly, I would also interject that the point of us telling the world about God and not to convert the world to be Christians. Basically we are telling them a truth! And the truth prompts us to do such and such. It cannot be the other way around of showing them the way of life or the benefits or the whatnot then leading them to the truth. We are not trying to get a bigger lobby group, trying to save souls .etc ALONE. There is no end in that. All has to stem from a living God that has revealed himself to us. I would do well to put it in perspective.

Looking inwards this week I see again lots of flaws in myself, again, especially in such an environment where everyone has done so much. I wouldn’t take it as comparison for the sake of comparison but more as comparison to see what can be learned and improved. Still, we are all works in progress.

I know these two posts are in really broad, modern-art esque strokes and apologise for that. Time constraints. (A really bad reason, I know.)

Nicholas Khaw

Arguments - Nicholas Khaw

So, second week of STEP passed by rather quickly. I am quite amazed that it is almost the end. It feels like it just started. It really should be longer. There is still much to learn.

Hmm, I shall not do a chronological summary. So, disparate points on certain issues will be the format of this reflection.

Lets start with the Ravi Zacharias International Ministries' talk. Before entering the talk I had heard several people fanboy/fangirl over him. So I was like, hmm, it better be good. But I didn’t have high expectations. Generally when people talk about science and religion I have a sense of futileness that overwhelms all. This stems from past experiences. 

20 minutes into the talk I was like, ugh, probably going to be the same old thing again. By same old thing I mean a person within this Christian paradigm telling us things that we already know. Like how it is between two entrenched ways of thinking, believers and non-believers. Believers will readily accept whatever is being said, for e.g that chance is way too small, way too impossible, that all the constants are acutely fine-tuned points to a God or creator and the non-believers will just champion their luck and chance and time. And it just develops into a stalemate that is just plain annoying for all parties involved because nobody is listening to anybody.

This problem will be compounded when the whole audience is just believers. And the believers will play devil’s advocate and at the whole end of the answer and discussion everyone will still be at the same idea and arguing for the same thing.

So, I guess I was quite impressed when he didn’t get tangled into the nitty gritty and pulling out specific examples and going into the whole chance argument. I think it can be quite succinctly summarized in the line that ‘God encompasses science, not the other way about hence science can only support the idea of God but not prove God’. And the constant zooming out of scope such that it essentially presents a philosophical argument. Which holds and makes sense. (Why would I want to study philosophy anyway?) It avoids the dogmatic and inane argument of one side claiming God cannot be disproved and the other side claiming that God can never be proved and each egging the other on to do such (disprove or prove). When the answer on both sides is assertively no. A no on the opposing side does not equate to a yes on your side. Just because God cannot be disproven by your current framework does not mean God necessarily exists. Similarly, the fact that God cannot be proven does not mean he does not exist. But yes, I am rambling. 

This approach is opposed to the Creation Ministries International (CMI), which I have been quite avidly following for the past few years, but I guess both have their place but the philosophical argument avoids many of the pitfalls a purely simplistic scientific argument would have. In fact, I think the scientific work done by CMI is wonderful but should be used in the right context, that is the larger philosophical context as supporting evidence and not stand-alone proof that it is inherently not. We (including I, or perhaps, especially I) could do well to remember that God’s ways are higher than our ways.

This ties in very well with another point that goes to state that we should assert and not force. I think it treads a very fine line, like what the speaker says, that our faith is not a mere belief. I think that I would do well to not swing the other way and get tired of arguing with people and just claim that I believe this, you believe that then alright, thank you very much, good luck with that (in a dismissive tone and change the topic to the weather or something). We should ensure it does not become an excuse for our laziness in spreading the good news yet we should not be overbearing and all. I think we should assert like how God asserted through the bible. Like in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Just a statement of fact. It is really a holistic thing this good news we believe in. So whole that I definitely cannot put into words within a weekend (or ever).

Nicholas Khaw

The Cost and Risk of Mission - Benedict Cheong

From the picture, we can see that a map is useful as it tells us where we are, and indicates the possible places for people to go. In the fellowship outing held on Wednesday at the Singapore Botanical Gardens, we arrived knowing what we wanted to do, but with no fixed location in mind. In the end, we simply wandered until we stumbled upon an open space which suited our activity nicely.

On hindsight, it seemed strange. Why didn’t I (or anyone else for that matter) feel worried about not having a place to settle down and begin playing? I guess the answer is pretty obvious. With such a large area to choose from, there is certainly no shortage of space.

This leads me to consider the parallels that can be drawn with the nature of missions. Firstly, the general mood of the group of us was high, possibly because we looked forward to fun times ahead. Unfortunately, when it comes to missions, I am unable to cultivate the same level of enthusiasm. Perhaps this is the reason why many missionaries are held in high esteem. It is never easy to leave the comfort of our homes and venture into other areas to spread the Word. Seeing how we are commissioned to spread the Word, it is therefore important for us to look forward to letting others know about the Gospel. For myself, I am still hesitant about venturing into these areas, but I sincerely hope that a day would come where I would be able to fulfil the duty that is bestowed upon me.

In such a large park, there is no shortage of places to play. Likewise in the world out there, we are all aware that there are plenty of areas for us to go forth and spread the Word. Yet, worries about livelihood and survival are one of the most commonly cited reasons why people are unwilling to risk travelling to unknown territories to conduct missionary work. This also brings me to the map. Often times, missionaries do not have the luxury of having a map telling them where to go. Even though they may be sure of what they set out to accomplish, there is always a lingering worry that there might not be a suitable place where the people are receptive to Gospel teachings. When we entered the park, there was not a shred of doubt that we wouldn’t be able to find a place suitable for us. It is this confidence that the Lord will provide that I hope to instil in people that may wish to do missionary work, probably myself included. We can say that we must be strong in our faith that God will provide, but in reality, we find it hard to walk the talk.

At the end of the day, I truly hope that when it comes to evangelism, I will be able to approach it with an attitude that is similar to how we felt on Wednesday. To be able to anticipate the events ahead with joy, yet without having any worries about the future at all, because He will provide.

Benedict Cheong

When I Am At Lab, Some of the Best Conversations Happen - Abigail Lai

Coffee and a book - always perfect for your brain to churn.
The talk on Christianity and Science was refreshing. In NUS, I spend an average of 8 hours doing lab work a week. I do lab dressed in my white knee-length lab coat, in long pants and covered shoes, and most of the time with plastic gloves that make my hands smell very bad afterward. Much of it is repetitive work that seems to aim more to fit data into theory than the other way around. But because of its very nature much of the best conversations about Christianity and Science has happened and can happen in the lab. 

Once I had just inserted my samples into the centrifuge and my lab partner and I had 40 minutes to wait around. Somehow we started talking about religion, and he asked me the same question the speaker asked us: how can you believe in God if you’re a scientist? 

So I launched into how I was pondering one day how science can and has brought us deeper but it has never brought us finality. For example, we feel warm because heat is produced, because particles move faster, because energy from elsewhere was transferred to us so our particles could move faster. But why would particles moving faster make us feel warmer? And even if we explained the mechanism behind that, it remains a mechanism, and we can keep going deeper and deeper but there’ll never be answers to a final ‘why’. 

So now I think it’s beautiful how the very premise of Science is something I can use to explain why I’m a scientist and believe in God. Science looks into things, with the philosophy that there is a deeper reality and unfound truth behind the things we observe. If we do experiments for the sake of experiments, we are robots. But if we do experiments to dig out a deeper truth, then we acknowledge there is something else out there to find out. And I wonder for many of my friends what this greater reality is for them. 

I think we make an error when we try to use Science to explain God. There are lots of theories now going on about how God in Genesis is compatible with scientific fact and data. Things like how Light was first created and we were all made from Light, or how the Sun was indeed created first but combustion took awhile to occur for light to occur because it had to accumulate enough mass etc. God will never be explained by Science. God explains Science. 

God has made an order to things so that consequences will always follow certain events. What is wiser I believe is to look more carefully into His Word and understand Genesis, the Flood and all these things for what the author is trying to tell us about God. Surely there will be plenty of surprises. (After all, we have already heard last week how Genesis in its historical context can alter the way we read the book.)

Abigail Lai

Thinking Like and Unlike A Theologian - Abigail Lai

Looking up to Jesus.
There was a lot of theology this week - theology of worship, sacramental theology, theology of Christian life. Many parts of church and living out our faith were seen through the eyes of theology. It was pretty interesting to hear the discussions between various groups with different thoughts - especially since it came to sacramental theology. I think the talk fit in nicely with our visit to Church of St. Mary of the Angels on Sunday, where we witnessed the Holy Communion and understood the transubstantiation (wah chim word) of the bread and wine. 

We may disagree, what with the Westminster something I know nothing about but heard a lot about, with whether the Spirit of God is in the bread and wine we partake, and whether there is any significance in taking it at all. But while now we know the Presbyterian stand, let us not reduce the partaking of bread and wine to theology. At least personally, the Holy Communion is a grave reminder of what our Lord Jesus has done for us. At the end of it all, let us return always to the feet of our Lord Jesus.

I love what Rev. Tan Tiong Ann (TTA) said about keeping the tension and how post-modernism is not a problem. Yes we have an absolute truth, but no we have no completely right way to worship and sing and partake of the communion and live. I think every church brings out or focuses on a different part of God. As we prepare our hearts for service at New Creation Church tomorrow, I really pray and ask that God will soften our hearts and open our minds to how He moves in churches different from our own. I have a stand that there is space for deeper (or if you will, spiritual) experiences with God in many of our churches. 

For God to move in Singapore, the Church must come together as One Body. We all have flaws, but we all have merits as well. Rev. TTA said ‘boring’ doesn’t mean bad and ‘lively’ doesn’t mean good, but in the same way, ‘boring’ doesn’t mean good and ‘lively’ doesn’t mean bad either.

Over my past semester in NUS, I’ve heard of prayer groups sprouting out in various courses. It’s amazing to hear and I wait in expectancy for God to move. Remember that 40 years ago a prayer movement that spread across the island grew many of our churches and leaders today. If God wants to move again, and though we do not know how He will move and when He will move, are we open and willing to let Him work? I’ve also heard that many of these prayer groups are of a more ‘charismatic’ leaning, but as Presbyterians, will we enter in, join hands in fellowship and listen, and prayerfully offer our view of God’s unchanging Word? From the ritualistic to the pentecostal, God is Lord over all.

Abigail Lai

Christian Living and Enthusiam for God - Sheryl Chng

Today, we were briefly introduced to what Christian living really means. From this session, I took away two important points. 

The first important point, or question rather, was how we can sustain our enthusiasm for Christ. There tends to be some sort of hype when we do things for the first time, but after a while, this enthusiasm gradually dies down. I feel like sometimes that’s how I am like. After camps or retreats, or Christmas or Easter services, there tends to be some sort of greater “passion” for Christ, but after a few weeks, after life gets back to its mundane routine, this enthusiasm kind of fades away.

Personally, I feel like this enthusiasm refers to the desire to learn more about His word, the desire to learn more about His ways, and the desire to grow closer to Him. Having the privilege of coming from a Christian family allows me to go to church every week without facing objections and rejections from relatives and friends, like some Christians do. Things fall in place very nicely for me, and sometimes I take this for granted. For me, I think this is one main reason why there are times when I am not as “enthusiastic” for Christ. So yes, this is something I can work on.

The other important thing I learnt was that Christian living is more about the process than the result. This point really got me thinking. Sometimes, instead of just verbally sharing the Gospel, it might be better to live out the Gospel, to show people how disciples of God are like, instead of telling them what they are like. Hence, we should always be on our guard, and we should always be mindful of what we say and what we do. After all, actions speak louder than words.

All in all, it was a good talk about Christian living. :)

Sheryl Chng

Childlike Faith - Amanda Pan

As young adults or grown-ups (though our parents would most probably beg to differ), we often like to think we know better. Whenever I see children in Sunday School memorizing Bible verses and singing praise songs at the top of their voices, it makes me wonder and sometimes even doubt if they really understand who God is. 

Over the past two weeks, we have been delving into theological education and the importance of it in understanding the God whom we proclaim to worship and adore. As I recall the sharing by Marianne on her experience with the children in South Africa, I was struggling to reconcile the pursuit of theological education and that of childlike faith. 

In Matthew 19:14, Jesus says “Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven.” From this, we know that God values the faith of young children because they are unassuming, trusting, dependent and most of all pure and innocent. They do not hold on to their possessions like adults do, they do not doubt but simply believe. This made me question the importance of being theologically educated in the eyes of God. Does God really require us to attain that much biblical knowledge or does He simply want us to believe and trust in Him? This question brought me in circles and so I had to seek the help of fellow STEP-ers. 

It turns out that I had interpreted innocence and trust incorrectly. God called us to have child-like faith and that does not equate to having blind faith. One of the greatest possessions man holds dearly to his heart is pride and self-centeredness which can be manifested in many forms. One of which is intellectual pride. 

When we pursue theological education with the goal of wanting to win an argument against an atheist, beneath this façade of upholding God’s truth lies an insidious motive of self-righteousness. As Christians, we must understand that ultimately, it is not the soundness of our arguments that leads another to believe in Christ but God’s grace through faith. It is His gift to us and not something which we can earn. This is a humbling truth that I sometimes still struggle to grasp, especially at the peaks of church ministry.

I would like to reconcile theological education and child-like faith as having the curiosity just like that of the children to want to know more about the mystery of God but not to acquire knowledge to fuel our intellectual pride. As children, we always ask ‘why’ and even though we do not fully comprehend the answers given to us, we do not doubt nor question the authenticity of the answer. It is this humility and selflessness which children possess that our Father values. Theological education (or at least a big part of it) is to help us understand God’s intention and not to justify our selfish and prideful ones. After all, will our being theologically educated guarantee our salvation? 

Amanda Pan

A Heart of Flesh - Amanda Pan

It is not unusual for us to identify ourselves by our current vocation. If you asked a university student this question, “What are you going to be next time?” A student studying Pharmacy would reply “Pharmacist”, another studying medicine would say a doctor. As a Psychology major, I thought that becoming a Psychologist or Counselor would have been my natural course of action. 

This was also reaffirmed by recent happenings in my life and I had always thought it was God’s way of telling me that I made the right choice to go into Psychology. I had been so sure about this until Thursday when something Pastor Gideon said made me question my conviction. “You don’t need Psychology to know how to counsel.” At that moment, my friends who knew I was studying Psychology all turned to look at me and I recall jokingly saying that I would quit school immediately. The cool front I put up then did not reveal the storm that was brewing in my mind. Many questions and doubts started to emerge and right then, I felt extremely nervous about my future.
 
Psychology claims that most disorders result from negative cognitions which are often translated into maladaptive behaviors. However, Matthew 15:11 which reads “What goes into someone's mouth does not defile them, but what comes out of their mouth, that is what defiles them", challenges this and implies that there is a deeper level to mental disorders than bad childhood experiences and negative cognitions. Just as how a good tree will not bear bad fruits but only good ones, a bad tree will only bear bad fruits but not good ones. The heart of the matter is actually the matter of the heart.
 
We have reduced the Word to a tool we use to counsel others instead of it being the shed in which we work. As God’s creation, we need our Creator who knows us best. When we don’t put God into the picture when trying to address issues of the heart, we only see the tip of the iceberg while the rest of it remains unraveled. This could be one of the main reasons why the chance of relapsing for mental disorders still remains high even with major advances in treatment methodology. We consult the help of psychologists who prescribe medication to suppress our negative emotions and all this does is to make it easier to control the physical manifestations of that reality. 

Cognitive treatments attempt to change the way we perceive the world but it does not involve the transformation of the soul (or spirit). This only goes to show the depravity of man, man’s need for God, and how we are like fish out of water the more we try to help ourselves without consulting the incomparable wisdom of the Lord most high. Without God, we are merely using filthy rags to wipe the stains on our hearts when what we really need is a complete change of heart which can only be accomplished by the work of the Holy Spirit.
 
This has been a subject of poignant interest for me and I have much to learn and internalize from what I heard on Thursday. I am still realigning and reconciling what I learn in Psychology with my identity in Christ but have since taken on a new perspective: Psychology is but a tool; the Word is my shed in which I work and being Christ’s follower is my vocation.

Amanda Pan

Midweek of Mid-Programme - Yuanjie

I was always fascinated by the apologetic ministry and how they could so beautifully bridge the gap between the different schools of thought and so bold to speak to so many people and bring forth the world in a rational manner.

Thus to have a Ravi Zacharias International Minitries' speaker to talk to us was definitely amazing. An important thing I got from it was to remember the premise of people and to really go back to first principles and to start off from there. Thereafter, by understanding these premises then can we form a correct frame of reference from which meaningful discussions can blossom.
 
The sharing allowed us to see how the churches were formed and the overlaps in history for these particular churches. On first hand, they were started by people who believed to bring forth what they treasured, and persevered through difficult periods in their history to give us what we have today. In a way, perhaps it is also appropriate that we think along those lines and ride on the same spirits to bring our congregations to the next level. I was particularly intrigued by my own church history, and do feel indeed a sense of solidarity and (healthy) pride to be where I am. It is also encouraging too to see how some members were further inspired to bring the history to their church members and perhaps even pursue this as a ministry project.

Finally free time is always good, and having time to know each other through spontaneous outings and botanic garden visit; probably another good outcome of the STEP programme that is to know more friends to fellowship and share with.
 
No, the uncle on the right of the picture is not in STEP!

Deviations - Yuanjie

It is indeed hard to fathom the situation that Calvin faced during the medieval period. Perhaps really an extension of God's grace that led us to be able to do what we do today, and to appreciate to a deeper level God's word for ourselves rather than to live with a present fear and feeling of un-guaranteed salvation.

Perhaps then a recurring question is then why did God allow this to happen and to let the church go into this state. Then again this question could involve the entirety of the bible and to extend to why let Adam fall in the first place, which is a whole other matter concerning free will which will be out of the context of this discussion.

At this stage of course then comes this very good analogy by 长安牧师:
 
Math can speak gospel too!

I think within the context of our own human actions (inspired by God and still have a lot of control over) and as leaders, it really takes a slight deviation to really compound and aggravate and result in a very large abyss between Truth and where we are. Just as how in the previous week we realize how seemingly small actions or changes in political environment leads to very different results and makeup of the populace. It is in our every responsibility to then, with the help of prayer and God, to always keep it as close to the Truth as humanly possible.

Yuanjie

Presbyterian Worship - Matthew Saw

We have just completed three days of incredible teaching by Rev. Tan Tiong Ann. His immense knowledge and intelligence, forged from a lifetime of Calvinistic studies, made itself apparent during the short time he was with us. In all honesty, it was a bit much for my feeble mind to bear. However, one idea stuck with me: Is our worship regressing? Aw man, another reflection on worship. Bear with me please.

Rev. Tan spoke at length about the style of worship practiced in the old Catholic church, which was a largely participation-free Mass, involving highly practiced rituals and a deep liturgy, drawn from their theological framework, and the theology of the many Doctors of the Church that came before. Only the qualified among the clergy were allowed to conduct this Mass, and the laypeople were forbidden to participate in this ritual. To observe this ritual alone was devotion and worship. I hope you have seen the similarities this style of worship shares with some of our modern worship services. Think with me to a modern contemporary worship service. To highlight the similarities better, I shall draw on your understanding of a megachurch service. I am not drawing fire to our Charismatic and Pentecostal brothers and sisters. Our service too shares the same similarities, only to different degrees.

The megachurch service often involves a highly practiced worship set. The service team on stage is a professional outfit, and barriers to enter this service team are high, both in skills and spirituality. Besides the song set, often a highlight for many churchgoers, there is a highly charged message, carefully chosen, crafted and presented with a passion that burns brighter than a million suns, in order to deliver the strongest spiritual and emotional ‘punch’ possible. For the average churchgoer, participation is to sing and dance along, and agree with the preacher with a resounding ‘AMEN!’ They participate from the sidelines. ‘Feeling it’ from the professionally presented service is worship.
 
As much as we may try to deny it, our church is also probably like that, perhaps lacking professionalism and emotional effect, but still similar in execution. That is why we still say things like: “That was a horrible worship, the sound was terrible.” Or things like: “That speaker was so invigorating! Such splendid worship.” I’m not done with the medieval Catholics though. Another issue that plagued the church at that time was a lack of Bible study. The layperson was not held accountable for his or her study of God’s word. It was an act reserved for the clergy, and eminent theologians were respected much like the scientists of today, being bearers of a profound knowledge, and keepers of the secrets to the universe. 

Rev. Tan highlighted that because of this problem, the laity was left to interpret the Mass on their own. This was where much of Christian mysticism came from. Ideas like ‘carrying a cross with you can ward off demons and curses’ or ‘holy communion is necessary to invoke God’s presence’ and other superstitions come from this lack of theological understanding. Theological training has increased manifold in the post-Reformation era, but the same problems persist in different forms.

We find it hard to worship God and ‘enter into God’s presence’ when the music is bad or the sermon is too difficult for us. We don’t understand why we have prayer, or responsive reading, we simply participate. These elements are what make ‘worship’. As much as we should critique the theology in the sermons we hear, it is easier to just ‘take it all in’. After all, the pastor went to theological college! He can be trusted. Some pastors speak so well that we are taken in anyway, whether it is really good theology, or simply pop psychology mixed into a motivational speech disguised as a sermon. We interpret our service based on our feelings, and other liturgies become invalid because they are not ‘anointed’, or are too ‘traditional’.

Our worship has regressed. Do we really understand why we worship? Are we simply going to repeat the mistakes of the previous generation of believers? There is a need to involve the congregation more in the worship service. In order to worship as a corporate body, we need to take the responsibility of keeping the Law in our hearts seriously. Every believer should know why he or she worships God in a specific way. We all can participate in the service, and understanding the elements of each section of our liturgy, as well as the spirit of why we sing, or why we worship God with the preaching of His Word, will allow us to truly participate, not only in action, but in Spirit and in Truth.

Matthew Saw

Poverty - Matthew Saw

Marianne in Zambia.
“Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.” (Matthew 25:40)

I was discussing with a fellow youth leader recently about the stagnating faith of our youth, especially second-generation Christian youth. The youth in my church seemed content to serve and join the weekly bible sessions. There is no further dimension to their faith. I was at a loss, and asked him:
 
“Is there anything I can do to help them grow deeper in their faith?”
 
He responded:
 
“Take them to see the poor.”
 
My first thought was how logistically difficult something like that would be. Then I realised what he meant. Church life for the average churchgoer in a middle-class church is very comfortable. The practical application of ‘stepping out of our comfort zone’ for us is to lead our first game at church camp, or to serve on the worship team for the first time. The furthest we go is to invite our friends for the next church event. Sadly, that was how I used to think when I first joined the church. Many years later, I realised that this was wrong. What I heard from the three young people who had done ‘incredible’ things, and their stories of how God had worked in their lives, I became convinced that I would not see God if I did not see suffering.
 
I was deeply touched when I heard Marianne sharing about her encounters with God in her encounters with the underprivileged. When she shared about how she broke down when faced with a situation that she had no words of encouragement for, I thought about myself and my youth. It is so easy to encourage in our society. Just a pat on the back or a 加油, and we assume that we have done our part. Listening to our first-world problems like how hard it is to find a romantic partner, or the social ramifications of taking selfies have rendered us shallow and incapable of real sympathy. How about those really suffering? Can we really deliver the words when the time comes? Are we prepared to give our time and resources to be that encouragement? God calls us to love the poor and needy, and firing off inspirational quotes on social media is not it.
 
God is calling us to step out of our boat into the water with Jesus. God is calling us to step out of our churches into the world of the prostitute, the world of the orphan, the world of the homeless, the world of the underprivileged elderly, and the world of the mission. This is the people who really need the encouragement of a Saviour. Are we willing to step out of our boat? We need not even be the celebrity missionaries that are so exalted in today’s church. There are many suffering in Singapore. Right outside my home is the red light district. The mission is a street away for me, a bus ride away for you.
 
“What do you think? There was a man who had two sons. He went to the first and said, ‘Son, go and work today in the vineyard.’ ‘I will not,’ he answered, but later he changed his mind and went. “Then the father went to the other son and said the same thing. He answered, ‘I will, sir,’ but he did not go. 

“Which of the two did what his father wanted?”
 
“The first,” they answered. (Matthew 21:28-31)

Marianne had a point in her sharing where she said that at a missions conference, she felt called by God to give two years of her life to missions, but she was too afraid to go up to respond to that call. I too was at that missions conference, but unlike her, I responded to that call. She has gone, I am still here, and God is still waiting for me to fulfil that promise I made to Him then.
 
Oh God, please help me to be the son who is truly obedient. Amen.

Matthew Saw

A Purpose Driven Life? - Timothy Hou

Of course, not everything was comprised of lectures! There were talks given on various topics as well. One of the most engaging one was given by several young adults our age. In a nutshell, they were youths who felt the calling of God to do something different, something much more meaningful. 

For example, one of them, Marianne, went to Africa to volunteer with the poor, and in the process delayed her studies by a year. But the amount of insight she gained was much invaluable, with the most precious lesson of all being that to trust God in whatever you do. This made me think, once again, about my life purpose as right now I’m currently in the stage of life where I know I am being prepared, but as to what end I have no idea. I hope that there will be meaning in the eventual work that I find, and that I would be sensitive to His calling when it comes.
 
Of course, this programme would be kind of boring if we only stayed around for talks right? So there was fellowship time! It was interesting observing how we managed to decide on our final location of botanical gardens, as at first we thought of splitting up into two groups: one for the movies, and another one for outdoor activities, but after some persuasion we felt we should stick together, and from there on it was a tussle between gardens by the bay and the botanics. As good Presbyterians, how do we settle when there is a difference in opinions? By voting! And so that was how the final location was decided. Rather interesting! Because even in democracy, there are flaws with this system, mainly that we decide by popular vote and so the best way is not always the popular way. Of course, no one can ultimately decide what is best except God Himself, and so we look forward to the day when we can be with Him!

I also learned a lot during dinner time, as we were sharing about our lives with each other. Once again, it is amazing yet refreshing, how everyone comes from different backgrounds, most 2nd generation Christians, some are kids of pastors no less, and some are 1st generation. Yet it is always good to see people coming together to worship Him, and to fellowship with each other and share with each other our lives and thoughts. Looking at all the different paths that God has currently set us brothers and sisters on, I wonder what will be my eventual path, and whether I know if it will be for the best. But for now, I shall continue learning, seeking, and exploring, and last but not least, giving all glory to God!

Timothy Hou

Of Secular States and 'Cheem' Lectures - Timothy Hou

Week 2 started with us going to the Ministry of Home Affairs, or more specifically, Internal Security Department's Heritage Centre! Initially I was rather sceptical as it did not seem to have much in relation to what we were doing at STEP. But as we went through the exhibits detailing the numerous conflicts that Singapore went through in its growth as a nation, I was once again reminded of the fact that peace is not so easily come by, and part of the reason for this peace is the fact that Singapore is a secular nation state. It helped me better appreciate the relationship between church and state especially for us Christians called to evangelism, where we have to be mindful of not infringing upon the religious rights of others. I much liked the tour guide, as he was a former policeman, and had numerous interesting stories to tell! A STEP up in exposure indeed, haha.

After which, we went to Bethel Presbyterian, where at there we kick started off the first of the lecture series by Rev. Tan Tiong Ann. But before that, I was amazed at Bethel! From the architecture, to the layout of the building, it was evident that the planners of the compound had placed much thought so that there would be visible reminders of God’s truth and hope. It was also situated in a huge compound, and somehow it was very windy! I think we spent a good 15 mins exploring and looking at the place! 

Did I mention Rev. Tan started the first of the lecture series? He gave lectures on several topics, ranging from worship, to the sacraments, to Christian living. He is a man who has learned and thought widely and deeply, and while most of the times I had difficulty trying to grasp his ideas, these are the few takeaways I had.
On worship, one of the things was that we should always be respectful of the different worship styles of other denominations and churches, and also the fact that there is no single word for ‘worship’ in the original biblical text. Also, worship is not simply the use of instruments and voices for singing! The order of the service, or liturgy in other words, matter too! I liked the focus on the confession being the first part of the service. But for me, I think I shall still stick to hymns and organ playing as the preferred form of worship! The lyrics are rich in thought and depth, which often prompts thinking during worship.
The next lecture, which was more interesting, spoke on sacraments. I find the Holy Communion very hard to understand! How is the presence and remembrance of Christ to be interpreted? There are so many views, and honestly all the views make some sense in one way or another. I could understand why catholics reached the conclusion of transubstantiation since one might take a literal view of the words: This is my body. And I think interpretation of how the communion is like, and what it means, is one of the main sticking points when it comes to differences in denomination. But even then, as far I can understand, I shall take the communion in the faith and with the knowledge that God is with me and my sins have already been forgiven, and that I am free, being saved by Christ.
Most of these lectures were delivered also with a focus on John Calvin, his thoughts and works and beliefs concerning these essential topics. Personally though I use Calvin’s commentaries, and I have read a few of his works, I am not very acquainted with his thinking and beliefs, and consequently am not sure how to comment on the fact that we may be placing too much emphasis on him. But at the same time I think, one cannot deny the profound thought and entirely new ways he had of systematizing theology and bringing it into actuality in the governing of Geneva. It is amazing that, after over 400 years, Presbyterianism still finds a ‘revival’ in his teachings.

Timothy Hou

United With Christ, United As One Church - Adriel Yeo

Ever since my baptism in 2010, I have been partaking in Holy Communion without knowing much about its significance. I recall learning about it during my baptism class but it had no lasting impression or rather I did not give it much thought. Based on the little that I could remember before reading up on this, Calvin rejected the claim that Jesus was physically present during communion as well as the claim that communion was purely symbolic without any further meaning or value. Now as to what that meant, I had no idea. 



One of the sessions that we had to sit through during the STEP was on John Calvins’ sacramental theology. As mentioned above, Calvin did not hold to the idea that Christ was physically present due to his bodily ascension. In his book Institutes of the Christian Religion, Calvin says “Flesh must therefore be flesh; spirit, spirit -- each thing in the state and condition wherein God created it. But such is the condition of flesh that it must subsist in one definite place, with its own size and form.”

At the same time, to make the claim that communion carried no true significance apart from it being symbolic was to simplify this sacrament. Personally, I myself struggled with this issue. If communion had no spiritual purpose, did it matter how I approach the Lords’ table? My natural conclusion was that surely it mattered in terms of preparing my heart and mind. 

Deep within me I did find something mystifying about Holy Communion that I could not quite comprehend. During Rev Tan’s lesson on this topic, I was doing my own reading up and I came across this term called the pneumatic (from the greek word for spirit) presence of Christ. Basically, it was the view that Jesus’ body and blood was really present but through the spirit and not physically. In that sense, “I [Calvin] say then, that in the mystery of the Supper, by the symbols of bread and wine, Christ, his body and blood, are truly exhibited to us, that in them he fulfilled all obedience, in order to procure righteousness for us—first that we might become one body with him; and, secondly, that being made partakers of his substance, we might feel the result of this fact in the participation of all his blessings.”


Now of course, this still left me with questions as to how a person can be any more in Christ than he already is through the Holy Spirit. As I reflect on this, analogies do come to my mind but I recognize that it is difficult to come up with a perfect analogy that explains this mystical thing that happens during communion. However, I think communion not only unites us to Christ, it also unites us as an entire church. I just came back from meeting with one of my mentors and he was sharing with me that when he goes to a church in a foreign country, he may not understand the sermon but when it comes to communion there is this mutual understanding among everyone regardless of language because at this point, everyone is one in mind.

This coming Sunday, I will be partaking in Holy Communion. While I most certainly do not fully comprehend the spiritual significance, yet with this slight clarity of mind regarding this topic, I look forward to preparing my heart and mind before partaking the bread and wine. However, what I do know is that regardless of race or whatever language barriers that we may have, when we come to the Lord’s table, our eyes are all set on the same direction - that is the person of Jesus Christ.

Adriel Yeo

Am I Too Dumb - Sarah Tan

"Am I too dumb?"
I stepped into the second half of the second week of STEP with much anticipation and yet as I type in this otherwise blank document and reflect on the past few days, I am filled with a cocktail of inferiority and, slowly but surely, comfort. 



In this reflection paper, I will not be sharing on what I have learnt from the talks but rather, some things that The Lord has impressed upon my heart as a result of the talks.



The talk on Christianity & Science was one that I was really looking forward to, for I have came across many conversations and heated debates regarding this topic during my General Paper lessons in Junior College. As the talk on went on, I must admit that the hope of being able to understand all that was being expounded on slowly faded as I was not able to catch up. Honestly, I felt that it was getting too deep and beyond what I was capable to comprehend. Feeling intimidated and overwhelmed by the eloquence of others, I thought (bluntly) to myself, "am I too dumb?". 



This question then stuck on with me for the past three days but as I pen this in the minds of strangers and doubters alike, I am brought to this question - What lies have I been bought into that have made me gave in to inferiority? 



Undeniably, we each have our own set of strengths and weaknesses. We cannot run from the latter. But what was revealed to me was the very fact that God has created each and every one of us differently. I am special in my own way, the 'Sarah way'. I may not be good in grasping theological ideas quickly but I learn to make it up by doing my own research, findings and to understand them slowly on my own. And I think it is so amazing how God has made me realise this by myself during my own Quiet Time this morning, before I embarked on writing this reflection. 



There will be, and have been, many times when I doubt myself if I am qualified, if I am even good enough, if I am ready to go whenever and wherever He calls. But as I conclude the past two amazing weeks in STEP, I have learnt that as long as I acknowledge, seek and trust Him and His Sovereignty, I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Although it may be a difficult discipline to instil especially when times get too trying and negativity clouds my view, but I am bent on working on it. There will then be no space for inferiority and doubt in my life.
 
The boat is shaken,
and the waves are strong.
But Lord of all,
I will fix my eyes
on You

Sarah Tan

Heart of Worship - Sarah Tan

Worship should propel us into greater obedience.
"If you cry during a worship, does it mean that you are a more 'hardcore' and faithful Christian?", a non-believer friend once asked me. 

I remembered how poorly I answered him that day, with the lack of better knowledge and confidence. Not only that, I recall questioning myself - 'what exactly is worship?'. 



This week, we were enlightened on the topic of the Theology of Worship by Rev. Tan Tiong Ann. With that, I must admit that due to my deficiency in the proficiency of the Chinese language, I will provide my best attempt in conveying what I have learnt in the paragraphs to follow. 



Putting it in Rev. Tan's words - "Worship is a divine human encounter" and that we are to worship God according to who God is and who we are. Honestly when he said that, the thought about how big and great our God is and how small I am really struck me. And that is why worship needs to be first and foremost reverent. 



The other idea that was revealed clearly to me is that worship is both an attitude and an act. It is not just merely singing the songs or listening to the Word, but also the state of our hearts and mind as we come before a Holy God, so full of love, power and sovereignty. 



The question then is, how much of this 'attitude and act' is present in our worship? 



Honestly, I must admit that I have been guilty of the lack of the former. Sometimes, we come to worship with heavy hearts, filled with many worries, fears and burdens. Distraction then steals the limelight of which we give in to. But we must remember that our God is able and that we can cast all our cares upon Him! Then should we not come to Him in worship with thankfulness and gladness in our hearts? A healthy state of mind, a heart yearning to learn more about God and the desire to encounter Him will then lead us to have the right attitude during worship. 



As we keep in mind His Reverence and the condition that we should be in as we come before God in worship, I believe it will ultimately help us to develop a more intimate and deeper relationship with Him, a better understanding of what He is revealing in our lives and for us to respond in submission.



So in my best understanding of all that is said above, I came to a conclusion (I really am not sure if it is too big an assumption to make) that worship should propel us into greater obedience, and if it does not then that is not worship.

Sarah Tan

Local Mission Field - Reuben Yap

On Monday, we have a youth sharing session on overseas mission trips and one on underwater photography. Listening to them on their motivation, their passion and drive to achieve what they thought was necessary set me thinking on whether there is an issue that I felt needed to be addressed. I thought about mission trips, not overseas but local. I have a friend who lamented that students nowadays want to go on overseas community involvement programmes (OCIP) because it was a school requirement in order to graduate or that it will look good on their resumes. Due to that reason, the focus was on overseas work, and the needy in our home country are pretty much neglected.

There is work to be done in Singapore also, and I wanted to find out how we can help those in need in Singapore. The needs include physical and spiritual. The churches were set up in Singapore for a purpose, to meet the needs of the people in the area at that time, and as time progresses, the church grew. The needs of the people change with time and we too must change the way in which we try to meet or tackle such issues also. 

Living Praise Presbyterian Church, being the anchor church of Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Primary School, our mission field is just literally next door. Much can be done to reach out to the students. Coincidentally, part of our ministry project is tied to the school. So why not start with the Boys Brigade (BB) or the Girls Brigade (GB)? Our church currently has people who are committed to serving in the BB and GB. The challenge here is to encourage more on board. There is a camp this Saturday and helpers would be much appreciated! I intend to go and help, but now that I have injured my right knee, I am unsure if I could be of any help at all. Pray that God will provide the manpower needed and the program be run smoothly!

Learnt something new in biblical counselling, and also reaffirmed one bad habit of mine. I tend to judge people way before I find out the situation, something biblical counselling teaches you not to. The four steps to producing a positive fruit are love, know before speak and do. This is very important as there will be one day where people will confide in you and the least I could do is not to judge first without first finding out the issue. Oh and I also need to brush up on my mandarin again.

Reuben Yap